Awakenings

Having a kitten lick your eyes while I want to sleep. Guess I need to teach them to tell time.

Knowing

It is time. I know it. I made the appointment. Vet tech irked me when I explained to him that I had been in twice in the past month and the situation was only worse. I have to do something I find hard.

Cowabunga kitties

Getting two kittens has been fun. They jump at everything and everyone.

Waiting

Watching Alex. Is it time?
He has spark but his legs are failing him.

Celebrating

Alex has gained a half a pound in 2 weeks. That is good news. He is up to 5.6 pounds. He even looks happy. Happy with no teeth.

Copy Cat

Last cat post for a while. Me and my copier have a love/hate relationship. I love to hate it and it gets back at me. Just wait, when you have 5 minutes and need 30 copies of something when you got to be there, it will start jamming.


I see Alex has started seeing if there are any little elves in it.

Sneaking up on Boo Radley

This has nothing to do with:
http://www.bookrags.com/notes/tkm/CHR.htm
but it has to do with playing some lined out music that I had recorded from a Primative Baptist Choir. It is similar to a bagpipe the way the people slide into notes and the leader gives a line the people sing and while they are singing he give another line.

I was playing some and it spooked Alex. He hid for more than 2 hours. I wonder if he is scared of bagpipes.

Anointed or Owned?

Goose has been a trip recently. Whenever the sunspot goes away, he comes to the room we are in, meows at us then bids us to follow. We have this game we call "Chase Chase". He always initiates it by coming to us and meowing, we follow and chase him from room to room. This can go on for 5 to 10 minutes and all over the house with Goose tearing from room to room. The funny part is, it is so easy to sneak up on a deaf cat.

When he is ready, he will run to the bed and invite us to come and join him. He usually then, licks our forehead, headbutts us, and purrs really loud. It is an anointing by Goose. I also know he owns us. Not bad to be owned by a cat who 6 years ago would run from me.(We adopted hm then)

Goose left - Alex right

12:59 AM

I woke up again this morning soaked and hot but this time I had the Goose on me. He was asleep on my chest. I moved him and Alex moved in for his purr time. Goose them proceeded to stomp me and did circles over my head and around me. I do not think I slept well last night.

So here is Goose in a face plant on the bed.

Don't we all wish we could sleep this well?

Missing Charlotte

Last night as I went to bed, I checked on her spot to she if she was settled in for the night. I then remembered that she has passed on.

1:02

I awaken to the soft, warm, furry thing in the small of my back.
I am warm to the point of perspiring.
I move away from you but you nudge back.
You seek my warmth.
I arise and seek the cooling water.
I return to the softness and warmth of the bed and you decide it is time to purr loud in my face.
What does sleep mean to you?
Am I there for heat osmosis?
After a few minutes of purring and kneading, you doze off.
So do I.
Just to awaken and find a soft, warm, furry thing in the small of my back.

Goose

I watched Goose sleeping and had these thoughts:
For Goose.

You lay on the pillow,
In the corner.
Sleeping,
Snoring,
Content.

I watch you as you dream,
An ear flick,
A paw curls,
Your tail raises
and falls.
Your leg stretches out.

What are you dreaming about?
Are you a kitten playing with your siblings?
Are you next to your mother purring and being cleaned?
Are you chasing butterflies in the meadow?
Are you admiring the birds at the feeder?
What goes on in your mind?

You are curled up and happy.
I can’t bother you.
That would not be right.
You are dreaming,
And dreaming is what you do best.

Thoughts on starting to fight for life.

Its not time.

I look at you and you only want to be held.
You are a little wobbly in the legs.
You have lost a little weight,
But you continue to give.
You give unconditionally.
You keep coming up to me,
Wanting to be held, wanting to be near me.
I searched within myself to say
I want to fight this.
I want you to stay around a little while.
Am I being selfish?
Yes. I feel this fight is within you.
I see that you have life within you.
I want to have you around.
I want to hold you and have you next to me in the middle of the night.
Only by your choice.
But I say that its not time.

Watching

Alex is doing OK.

I have been watching him after his diagnosis.
He is very pesky toward Charlotte.
I want to bring him back and see if we can have the lump removed.
I wonder how he feels.

Goose was very friendly to me this morning and Charlotte actually is friendly,
Just if she did not give me so many upchucks.
I'll keep watching.
Nothing more to do.

Ode to Alex

For Alex.

You greet me at the top of the stairs.
Your eyes are bright and ears are erect, perky.
You come to be and I enfold you in my arms.
You come close to me and the purrs begin.
I crawl into bed and you lay next to me,
Head under my chin, your body so close to mine.
Is this what you want?
The warmth and attention?
I can give this to you as long as you want.
Your unconditional love and affection is important.
Your desire to be with me warms my heart.
How much longer?
Will you be with me?
Will you be perky?
Will you tell me when it is time?